This week was one of my worst weeks I have EVER had on my mission, but by worst I mean that it was still awesome, but things just weren´t working out. We were working so hard and we just couldn´t see the results of our labors. Also this week our ward went through a really hard time. A very faithful member died from intestinal cancer... Everyone LOVED her soooo much and were so sad to see her die. The day she died though, a whole bunch of the RS sisters left with us to go visit her. She was in ia TERRIBLE state. She hadn´t eaten for 2 days and she was throwing up blood constantly. All the sisters decided to join together and sing hymns to her. The moment we started singing, she started to calm down. I felt a power SO strong in that room that I cannot explain. All of the sisters combined together plus the hymns, I felt a unity and a strength beyond compare. It made me think of how we should be as members of church. We should all unite to help all of those people that we love. It also made me think of how grateful I am to have the knowledge of the Plan of Salvation and that now she can rest in peace for her righteous life that she lived.
On Thursday an investigator invited us over to her house to eat and I thought it was only going to last like an hour but it took up the WHOLE day... I felt so bad and I was so disobedient. I could NOT feel the Spirit as well and I was crying because I wanted it back. I spent the next 2 days repenting of my sins and one day I read in Doctrine and Covenants 121:43 and at our Zone meeting I got a prompting from the Spirit that was a reproving statement. They told me I should try to be better at teaching male investigators with members and with not leaving with females under the age of 18. I found that as I made the decision to do better and be more obedient like I had made the decision at the beginning of my mission, I was able to feel the Spirit speak to me again. Then in my studies the next day I found this scripture in Doctrine and Covenants 1:23-28 that says,
¨23 That the fulness of my gospel might be proclaimed by the weak and the simple unto the ends of the world, and before kings and rulers.
24 Behold, I am God and have spoken it; these commandments are of me, and were given unto my servants in their weakness, after the manner of their language, that they might come to understanding.
25 And inasmuch as they erred it might be made known;
26 And inasmuch as they sought wisdom they might be instructed;
27 And inasmuch as they sinned they might be chastened, that they might repent;
28 And inasmuch as they were humble they might bemade strong, and blessed from on high, and receive knowledge from time to time.¨
Wowwwww. That scripture touched my heart SO much. It is no coincidence that Heavenly Father sent out young adults to preach his gospel. We are far from perfect. Before I went on my mission I thought that missionaries were perfect and that they never sinned, but now as a missionary I understand A LOT better. We have weaknesses just like everyone else. We have our weaknesses to help others out and to come to a better understanding of the gospel. As we seek our Father out in prayer, we will be instructed and we will be forgiven of our sins. We will be humble so that we will be made strong. Through our weaknesses we will be blessed from on high and receive the knowledge that we need in the time that we need it. Now I have the newfound desire to be better not only as a missionary, but as a person so that I can live up to receiving blessings from my Father in Heaven. So that I can have the Spirit to be with me to help purify me and to help make me into a happier person.
Have a great week and I love you all,
Selfies... I found this huge leaf in the street that was as big as my head and I blocked Hermana Shaw, then Hermana Shaw made a great black bean and corn salsa. I woke up one morning and I was FREEZING. I had on my dress pjs and went to put on pants, a shirt, my cardigan, and socks.... YUP. I am officially Dominican. Then I am attaching a pic of me attempting to get a picture of my lip pointing but it turned out really funny and I wanted to share it with you guys. I seriously sat there laughing for about 20 minutes today. The picture of the salsa and salami was our lunch today. Hermana Shaw makes a really good black bean and corn salsa!!
Love you all and enjoy the pics!