A previous companion told me I live "posh". I never knew why she thought that until I saw my new apartment complex, and my first thought was, "This whole place needs a powerwash." Which, it does, but MAN is the Lord humbling me right now.
Honestly, EVERYTHING around here needs a power wash. I put hand sanitizer on every five minutes pretty much. It smells, and no one here smiles. I come home at night smelling like cigarettes and pot. I AM IN THE GHETTO EVERYONE. There is legit a complex in our area that's named "Sunrise", but everyone calls it "Gunrise". I am not kidding when I say ghetto. Also, the drivers here are CERTIFIABLY INSANE. I've seen people play chicken with an oncoming train already and I am preparing myself to see the Spirit World.
Some positive things about this place are that not everyone runs away or hides when we are around, and they actually answer the door! Woohoo!! I have seen only ONE "ring" doorbell thus far, and I feel blessed. Another is that drunk and high people are a blast to talk to hahaha.
I have been made very aware of how sheltered I am. A man we're teaching said something about a "well", as in a hole in the ground, and I thought he was talking about a "whale", as in sea life. I AM SO WHITE. I wanted to jump out the nearest window and fly back to Austin.
I didn't realize how important it is to me that my washer and dryer are IN MY HOUSE and not in a crusty closet on the balcony. Why are they in a crusty closet on the balcony? Not sure.
Another good thing about serving in San Antonio, is that the missionaries here are a lot less trunky. Because 1) we are a heck of a lot closer to the mission home and 2) because people here actually listen. An Elder I served around for 6 months is in my district (Elder Anderson is awesome, we love him) and he said, "I can tell you don't like it here, but just wait until you start talking to people. It's amazing." And well, he was right. Even though lots of people still aren't interested, they are still so much nicer to us when we're tracting.
Other things that I noticed about my personal growth this week:
-I saw a bug and I didn't scream and pass away. I have grown in that sense. Lol.
-When my comp didn't respond to an apology that I made to her about something small, I wasn't worried and it didn't make me anxious. My confidence is growing, and I am less paranoid! Past friendships, relationships and companionships have made me so so insecure about who I am and what people think of me. So, it may not seem like a big deal, but this was a HUGE step for me in being confident in myself!!
-I am learning to recognize when the Lord is trying to teach me something.
-I am understanding the Gospel on a level I never have before and I LOVE IT!
-I LIVE for my study time when I get to read the Book of Mormon!!
Random bit of info: There is a woman in our complex named Debrah, who thinks she's a prophet. She says her journal is the "new book" referenced in the Bible. *facepalm*
Something that stood out to me this week in my studies is, the fact that we have a modern day prophet is a manifestation of God's love for us, and his desire for us to be happy. That seems obvious, but the reasoning for that is something I only realized yesterday. When we teach people about the Restoration of the Gospel of Jesus Christ, we start with the fact that God is our LOVING Heavenly Father. He did not want us to wander in the dark. We learn this in 1 Nephi 13:32, "Neither will the Lord God suffer that the Gentiles shall forever remain in that awful state of blindness, which thou beholdest they are in, because of the plain and most precious parts of the gospel of the Lamb which have been kept back by that abominable church, whose formation thou hast seen." The abominable church is simply those who have become corrupt. He didn't want us to be without the gospel, and the pure truth and simplicity it brings, because the gospel brings us the love of God, which is "most desirable above all things." (1 Nephi 11:22). So, God brought about the Restoration of the Gospel. And what was the first thing He did to make that happen? He called a prophet, and gave him revelation to guide the people. That was one of the FIRST things that He did to restore the Gospel, according to our knowledge.
We are SO blessed to have President Nelson, and all the prophets and apostles before him. We are blessed to have the guidance of modern day prophets, and to have a direct connection to God on the earth today. I testify that he is a prophet of God, called of Him to bring the news of the Savior to every living being on this planet, and to hasten the work of those on the other side of the veil as well. I love and sustain him. In the name of Jesus Christ, amen.
Well folks, that's about all this week. My new companion, (Sister Kaitlyn Green from Morgan Utah) and I get along well, and we are having a blast out here in the ghetto. Say a prayer for me, because honestly I'm pretty sure I stick out like a sore thumb here. So fun.
Love y'all! Have a great week!
-meal planning! Fajitas with homemade tortillas
-creepy house of a referral
-random washing machine in our apartment parking lot
-rainbow over the HEB... fitting!