So I got the news last night that I will be transferred to east San Antonio this Thursday. Honestly, it broke my heart to hear that I will be leaving this beautiful place. I love the Austin and Round Rock area with all of my heart. All of the missionaries that served in Austin, got transferred to San Antonio and then came back to Austin, said, "San Antonio was fine, but I left my heart in Austin." That will be the same for me. I hope my path leads back here someday.
As well as leaving Austin, I will be leaving my companion... Sister Broman is one of my dearest friends. I love her with all of my heart. I feel so blessed to have met her and bonded with her.
Being set apart to serve the people here makes you love the people here so much that you ugly cry and throw up when you have to leave them. I have zero desire to leave Marc. I have zero desire to leave Daniel. I have come to see them as God sees them, and my heart is breaking as I think of having to say goodbye. Sometimes, missionary-life sucks. But life goes on.
I was talking to my mom today about things I've learned from my mission, and I remembered this talk by Elder Christofferson: "As Many as I Love, I Rebuke and Chasten". In this talk he shares a story about a gardener who finds a 6 foot tall current bush, with no fruit on its branches. He cuts down the current bush until nothing is left except small stumps and some leaves. He thought he heard a voice then, like the current bush was crying, saying, "How could you do this to me? I was making such wonderful growth but you cut me down." The gardener then said, "Look, little current bush, I'm the gardener here, and I know what you want me to be... and someday, little current bush, when you are laden with fruit, you are going to say, 'Thank you, Mr. Gardener, for loving me enough to cut me down.'" I know I am going through what I'm going through for a reason. Not sure what that reason is yet, because this hurts SO BAD. I can't breathe when I think about it too much. But, like Nephi said in 1 Nephi 11:17, in response to the Spirit of the Lord asking him what he knows of God, "I know that he loveth his children; nevertheless, I do not know the meaning of all things." I'm in the same freaking boat, man. I don't get it. I don't know all the why's. But I know that God loves me. That's all that's important. He loves me enough to do what's best for me.
On another note, I got to go skating at a ward party! Haha, I'm not that great at it. But a plus is that our investigator Daniel came!! Fav quotes:
Sister Broman: Careful Daniel, if you fall you might lose your pride.
Daniel: Don't worry, if I had any pride I wouldn't be here.
Love y'all, have a great week!
Pray for me, I feel like I'm losing my mind.