This week has been long. It has been filled with some incredible highs and some terrible lows. However through it all I have learned to lean on God one hundred percent. I've only been here for a week but I have learned so much. My companion and I are teaching four investigators. I love teaching because I learn so much from the investigators. They ask valid difficult questions that really make me think and grow. On Tuesday we were teaching our investigator Lucia and she asked us, "If God is really real why does he let terrible things happen in the world?" We immediately turned to 2 Nephi 2 which teaches that there must be opposition in all things so that we can know pain and sorrow from joy and happiness. We left that appointment feeling like we did not fully answer her question and prayed to be able to find that answer during our scripture study later that day. That night at devotional we were surprised and blessed to hear from the apostle Quentin L. Cook and he addressed that question and explained it so beautifully. I knew that he was inspired by God to address that question. I know that God cares about my investigator so much and that when I pray to know something, he'll answer it. I also love teaching because it makes me focus on others and not on myself. All I'm doing 24/7 is praying for my investigators so that they can feel God's love for them and so that they can be happy. That is my main goal. To bring them unto Christ and for them to just be happy in the crazy, confusing, difficult life.
The number one thing I love about the MTC is that I meet people from all over the world. I have met people from Jamaica, Africa, the Phillipines, Germany, etc. I love how the gospel is true all over the world no matter where you are from and what language you speak. I met a couple going to Iraq for their mission to start a church over there. They only know of one member in Iraq but they want to go and show their love for that one member and hopefully build the church over there. It is going to be hard because you are not allowed to wear name tags or talk about the gospel over there. They can only talk about it if someone happens to ask them. But i think it is amazing and so brave what they are doing for that one member.
I love my companion and district! We all learn and help each other grow. However, it wasn't love at first sight for my companion and I. Her name is Sister Weyerman. As other companionships in our district were becoming so close, we were really struggling. We have absolutely nothing in common. But over the week that I have been stuck with her and with God's help I have grown a huge amount of love for her. She is my best friend. Teaching with her is amazing. She teaches me so much everyday and our differences is what helps us to teach powerful lessons to our investigators.
I have grown an insane amount of love for Alma 32. I share it with all my investigators, all my friends, and all my teachers. To me it is such a powerful chapter, especially verses 27 and 28 which talks about if you have just a tiny desire to believe in the Savior, just a tiny tiny seed, that seed WILL grow if you allow it to and turn into a magnificent tree. I can feel the Spirit so strongly as I testify of the truthfulness of that chapter. I'm seeing this seed grow in my investigators and it is amazing. I have also seen this seed grow in myself this past week. i know with all my heart that Christ is my Savior and because of Him and His sacrifice I can be a better person every day. I can be forgiven of my sins and my short comings. He will be there by my side through all the hard times, times of weakness and sorrow. But through Him I can be eternally happy. I love my Savior with all my heart. I have felt Him by my side all week long. We listened to a talk by Elder Bednar called the The Character Of Christ and I'm telling you if you have not listened to this talk you should pull it up right now and listen to it. This talk is all about the character of Christ and how Christ focuses on turning outwards when the natural tendency is to turn in. He never once thought of Himself above anyone. This characteristic of Christ, turning towards others, is charity. And charity defines Christ. He would not be the Savior of the World if His character did not center around Charity. But it does. And that's why knowing who He is, knowing how He lived is so important because it gives us the chance to practice that knowledge, turning outwards towards others, so that we can become more Christ-like. You will not regret listening to it, even if you are not a member.
if anyone would like to write me letters or send me packages my address is:
Sister Amy Knox
2005 N 900 E Unit 14
Provo Ut 84602