Cześć wszystkim!! Can you believe that it's been two months? Nie wierzę w to! I am grateful that I have been able to spend these months here in Provo. I have learned so much about people, and Poland, Polish, and most importantly the Gospel of Jesus Christ. We are down to one week left in the MTC!! On the 30th, we will be moving to Poland. Words have not been invented to describe my joy and excitement! We actually spent a part of our day yesterday cleaning and packing a little!! Haha we are just so ready! The Lord has allowed for us to experience many many miracles while we have been here and those experiences have prepared us very well for what lies ahead. What a marvelous work and a wonder this is!
MTC food is the weirdest experience... It's like most of the stuff goes right through ya, but then you start gaining weight somehow. From monday to today, I'm up 6 pounds. Gotta love it! I know people who have gained like 20 pounds here, which is seriously awesome haha! I'm betting my money on gaining more weight Poland haha!!
Currently there are 38 missionaries in Poland for the 40,000,000 people in the country! Give it a week and we will be adding to the fun! Cant even wait!
The few weeks ago I ate 8 corn dogs.. pretty gross right? If you know me well, you know how much I love to eat corn dogs. When I got to class I was telling Sio. Theriault. "I ate 8 corn dogs today." Well I didn't know how to conjugate the word for eat, which is Jeść. I accidentally said "Chrzest." Chrzest means baptism. The sentence didn't make sense but it sounded like I said "I baptized 8 corn dogs." Good thing I'm still in the MTC haha!
In regards to Polish, I am having a great experience! I love the language, things are making sense, and I can talk all day with enough vocab to get me through. I have so much to learn, but I'm amazed at how much help the Lord has given me. Among all of the help, I have really recognized the ability to retain new words and to remember new cases and conjugations. Just being able to speak in a different language all day every day is a manifestation of the gift. The COOLEST part about the gift of tounges is that it teaches me how to have humility and patience. These spiritual gifts will not work without it. The gift of tounges is real, and it comes when I am diligently fighting to grasp the language. I want this language and the culture of Poland to be apart of my life forever. It is so unique. I am in love with it! I wish you could all be here to experience it with me.
This week I learned something from Brother Egot. He said that nothing will help your anxiety, or depression like learning everything you can about the plan of salvation. As you focus on the plan of salvation, every day gets happier. Tell yourself when you have a concern "Jesus can take care of that." Walk around and be happy, that's your part, and the Lord will take care of the rest.
This week we heard from President Owen who spoke about joy and enduring to the end after our missions. Did you know that only 40% of missionaries remain in the church after their missions? That is too low... If you don’t want to run out of gas, fill your tank every day. It's that easy.
Examine yourself, feast upon the words of Christ, serve others and bless their lives. The most spiritual experiences happen when we are serving others and doing what Christ would have us do. We have to be eating fresh fruits every day. There is not enough time left to slack! We are not perfect. But that is no excuse to stop working on our testimonies for even a second! We can do this! We chose to come down at this time. We didn't sign up for a walk in the park, we signed up for a war. Brother Egot expressed to us that as missionaries, in heaven, we signed up to be in the front lines of this army. I hope that I can continue to understand why I made the decision to come at this time! I wish the same for you. I do not believe that the way we find true happiness is by sitting down watching a movie or playing videogames or even sports. True happiness can ONLY come to you from understanding, applying, and relating back often to the Plan of Salvation. For me I know that this mission is only the beginning to a life filled effort of becoming converted. It is a life long process and it won't come in one day or even 1 year! Day by day your testimony can grow if you let it.
I received another answer to my question about the death of children this week. It came from a podcast about the Prophet Joseph Smith. In it he spoke about how some choice spirits come down to this world already having been so advanced and so close to God in the premortal world that the only thing that they had left to do on Earth was to gain a body and pass away. That speaks greatly of the choice spirits that we feel have left us all too soon on Earth.
Well, one more week to go in the MTC. After that it'll be bye bye Utah. I truly feel so blessed. Jesus Christ and His Father are both so loving. The Holy Ghost which resides in me is a constant tool in experiencing happiness and having the strength to carry on. I believe my experiences with these 3 beings are only just beginning. That is pretty exciting to me. Some days I wish I was in Disneyland or Disneyworld, living the good life. Then I recognize the amazingly unique opportunity I have to be a missionary! I try to make each day here feel like Disneyland. It really works! Just like in Peter Pan, you just gotta think a wonderful thought, true stuff! That's how you make it through the tough days as a missionary!
Please don’t give up. Wherever you are, right now, is not a place dark enough or low enough for the Love of Jesus Christ to reach you. All it requires is you reaching up to him. Life is so busy. But please don't forget why you are here. Make time for the gospel. Show the Lord that it is at the top of your priorities. That is when you will experience blessings.
I love you all. Thank you for building me up every day. I wish I could see more of the army of people who are praying for missionaries like me. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.