Date

November 6, 2019

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Elder Blauer

Week 2: Lowest of the Lows; Weakness into Strength

Hey everyone! Not gunna lie, it was such a hard week, but I have a story to tell y'all about how God can really change lives. I can promise you he does because he did it for me this week.

First off, I found that in trying to learn German, because of my past concussions, I was getting extreme headaches and not remembering any of the language... whatta bummer. All good though. It just makes it really hard to learn German so they were considering sending me English speaking. I was waiting all week to find out what the plan would be, and when the day came it all went very downhill.

Lemme explain a little bit before I continue. There are two groups, Helaman district and Alma district. I am in Alma district. Alma district has 4 guys and 2 girls and Helaman has 2 guys and 4 girls. I’m not going to lie, I was hopeful for an English-speaking mission because I wasn’t sure I could endure any more head pain and I wouldn’t have to wake up every morning forgetting most of the German I had learned literally 8 hours ago. That morning we were all called in by our mission president. He told us that due to some issues that were going on in the Helaman district, we were going to have to switch and Alma would be an all guys group and the Helaman district would be an all girls group. This meant that the district leader from the other group would have to be changed. This also meant the guys would have to move into our dorms and we'd have a completely full room. This is really hard because this means we don't have much space other than our beds. Honestly this dampened the spirits for everyone. This was atypical for districts so everyone was having a really hard time.

Then (With permission from the Elder to tell this story) we were switching everything up and I asked how an Elder was doing and he lost his cool and started yelling and was escorted out. And honestly at this point everyone was upset, including me. I had been waiting all week to see if they were going to change my mission, I was annoyed with my memory loss and headaches, because at this point, I couldn't even remember what we had eaten the night before, and our districts were the labelled the “bad districts” and we were all having to switch because of it even though my district had done nothing wrong. I was so frustrated. As I was sitting there boiling over with frustration, the Mission President called me out personally and said he needed me out in the hall immediately. I walk out and he told me the Elder that had been escorted out was given permission to walk around the temple to relax and he was given the choice of who to walk around with and he chose me. This was absolutely the most humbling experience. I was honored to be there for him, but the Lord knew that I needed the space as well. The walk was amazing. I got to talk to the missionary and hear his side of things and all he had gone through and it was fantastic to get to know him. While walking back with him, a thought popped into my head saying, "I called you to this mission, I know your problems, and I’ll help you through them, relax and it'll all be ok". That night I was called into the presidents’ office. Somehow, someway they decided to keep the missionary with memory loss in the German Speaking Mission. It was so humbling. The opportunity to stay in this mission got me so excited but I was so scared for the language. Then I was reading in the scriptures that night in Alma 26. It says, "I will not boast of myself, but I will boast of my God, for in his strength I can do all things." The next day I had a practice lesson with a German Speaker. My companion and I had written up a full lesson for her. About halfway through the lesson, I didn’t know where I was. I had a feeling to "Put the book down and trust I’ll put the German words in your mouth". This was my response "UMMM WHAT IN THE WORLD, WHY WOULD I DO THAT?" And then it came again, "Put the book down and trust I’ll put the words in your mouth", so I did. I had no idea what I was saying but I went for it. I don’t know how but I
was able to testify how the Scriptures bring me comfort and they guide me in my life-in German. It was seriously the craziest experience!

I just want to testify that I know the Lord takes our weaknesses and makes them strengths. I’m so grateful for the guidance He’s given me, a country boy with brain injury, in the short time I’ve been here because I need all the help I can get. This is His work and I am honored He chose an imperfect instrument like me to further the work. Thank you all for reading and supporting me. I can’t wait to talk to y’all next week!





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