We had a pretty good week this week as we had a baptism. We have been working with Sarahy and it was a blessing to see her get baptized. It took a lot of work and we are not finished as she is the only one who is a member now in her family. She is thirteen years old and loves the gospel. We had some difficulties with the baptism as she was having some problems before she got baptized. The sister missionaries provided a solution for her and helped her out. It was great to see her so happy and we are hoping she will continue strong in the gospel. We also hope that her family joins her quickly.
We have been working with another cool family as they have progressed, but they are quickly falling of the map. We have another investigator who is in the same boat. They are just not doing the things they need to do to have success. We are actually leaving a lot of people behind because there is absolutely no progression. It is good to leave them behind as we can find more chosen people and we are able to work even harder to be successful missionaries.
Some of the highlights of this week is we went to the temple visitors center with Sarahy. The temple has always been a sanctuary for me. I am sad I didn't go more often before my mission. I find so much peace there as the spirit is found in abundance, which helped me calm some of my fears and problems. I was then reinforced by the visit of a seventy of the church, Elder Gabarett. He really talked to us and help us understand we can find strength in the scriptures. He kept sharing scriptures to help us understand we are doing a wonderful job, but we have to keep continuing to preach and teach. He gave us a hope in a sense as we just felt weighed down. He also was able to give further instruction on how to report things.
We are getting better as a mission in reporting things and making things more efficient. To be honest it is where everything is being lost though. I have had difficulties recently where I just haven't been happy. It has been difficult as I have just been depressed especially my birthday. I didn't do anything I wanted to do, because I didn't feel like it was important. I have just had that difficulty recently of just not wanting to continue on an do my best. I have felt as Elder Rowley put it overwhelmed. I want to do what is right, but I also want to have fun and I can't seem to do that as I want to do other things. I just really haven't been myself for the last part of my mission so far. I just hope for a bright future and maybe a better life after the mission. After many hardships comes blessings, right?
Elder Elton and Rowley have been a great support to me. I really haven't been good at talking there advice because they are both at the extremes. It makes me think a lot of what I need to do or where I need to stand. Elder Rowley just makes me think of my transfer with Elder Stuart. Elder Elton reminds me of Elder Wandry. I work with the extremists for some reason and sometimes I can't handle it, but it is well all in all. This transfer has been one of refinement and fire. I can feel the heat and the shaping that is taking place. I recently found solace in Elder Ucthdorf's talk from General conference about the lost lambs. It struck my heart to the core as it is helping me understand my role.
We have seen miracles and changes in less actives and now we are just working with them and waiting to see if they truly do want the change. I have been trying to open myself up through expressing my thoughts and that is one of them. The mission is a burning furnace (because we live in California ;p). Anyways I am trying to keep my head up and be cheerful. Hope you are doing well and I hope I can hear some experiences from you guys as well.
Your struggling and fighting missionary,
P.S. I have had moments where I have wanted to cry this week because of lack of happiness. I am hopefully over that stage now. Hopefully keep me in your prayers.