This week was yet another great day as a full time missionary!! Before I say anything, let me just say that coming on a mission has been the best decision I have ever made. I have come to know Heavenly Father and the Savior on such a personal level. I am just feeling very grateful. I walked into the MTC on June 19th 2 years ago. My goodness a lot has changed since then and I am so thankful for the past two year of my life. It truly has been the best two years!
This week was awesome! We ran around at 100 miles per hour just teaching and finding and finding and teaching! It has been awesome. The Lord has blessed us so much here in Ponca City! We had so many new people at church this week! Elder Elzinga and I Say "these people be flocking!" We have been abundantly blessed. Our friends Brysen, Zoe, and Alijah are preparing to be Baptized on the 26th and July 17th. We are excited for them.
Here is a cool insight from my studies that I learned this week from Elder Maxwell.
" When the unimaginable burden began to weigh upon Christ, it confirmed His long-held and intellectually clear understanding as to what He must now do.
Later, in Gethsemane, the suffering Jesus began to be “sore amazed” (Mark 14:33), or, in the Greek, “awestruck” and “astonished.”
Imagine, Jehovah, the Creator of this and other worlds, “astonished”! Jesus knew cognitively what He must do, but not experientially. He had never personally known the exquisite and exacting process of an atonement before. Thus, when the agony came in its fullness, it was so much, much worse than even He with his unique intellect had ever imagined! No wonder an angel appeared to strengthen him! (See Luke 22:43.)
The cumulative weight of all mortal sins—past, present, and future—pressed upon that perfect, sinless, and sensitive Soul! All our infirmities and sicknesses were somehow, too, a part of the awful arithmetic of the Atonement. (See Alma 7:11–12; Isa. 53:3–5; Matt. 8:17.) The anguished Jesus not only pled with the Father that the hour and cup might pass from Him, but with this relevant citation. “And he said, Abba, Father, all things are possible unto thee; take away this cup from me.” (Mark 14:35–36.)
Had not Jesus, as Jehovah, said to Abraham, “Is any thing too hard for the Lord?” (Gen. 18:14.) Had not His angel told a perplexed Mary, “For with God nothing shall be impossible”? (Luke 1:37; see also Matt. 19:28; Mark 10:27; Luke 18:27.)
Jesus’ request was not theater!
In this extremity, did He, perchance, hope for a rescuing ram in the thicket? I do not know. His suffering—as it were, enormity multiplied by infinity—evoked His later soul-cry on the cross, and it was a cry of forsakenness. (See Matt. 27:46.)
Even so, Jesus maintained this sublime submissiveness, as He had in Gethsemane: “Nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt.”
This kind of blew my mind. The Great Jehovah who created worlds without number was astonished at the suffering. Nevertheless, He drank from that butter cup that set us all free. I love Him. I am so thankful for Him. Something that I was taught by my Mission President has always stuck with me.
THE WORTH OF A SOUL IS DIRECTLY PROPORTIONATE TO THE PRICE PAID TO REDEEM IT
What price was paid to redeem your soul? What about mine? What about your neighbor? What about the man on the street?
We are of infinite worth and value to our Father in Heaven and the Savior! May we always remember that. This has been weighing heavy on my mind. I feel it so deeply. Now let's get up and do our very best to see others and ourselves as our Heavenly Father does! I love you all my brother and my Sisters!